We all go through the dreaded D word at some point in our lives and it really isn't a pleasant experience. Everyone has their own battles to fight and depression affects us all in some form or another. I am hoping this post will bring comfort to those currently going through it and to reassure you that these phases are only temporary and the blues can be beaten. This is what is working for me…
I am usually a very upbeat and positive person, but I have struggled in the past with depression. I suffered a bad spell in my late teens that lasted about a year or so and then last year I seemed to be attacked by it again.
What causes it? A whole manner of things, but for me personally the root cause seems to be from a huge insecurity complex that I have battled with for years. Last year we had some big changes, a very complicated house move, a family health scare. I took on way too much work in the terms of illustration work on top of all the other things I have to juggle, and there were lots of other incidents that contributed to my mental state. I completely lost myself and started turning into a different person. I was very depressed, I suffered panic attacks, I was over stressed and generally a right miserable git. I was consumed by so many negative qualities, self loathing, bitterness, anger, jelousy, the feeling that everyone didn’t like me and I was not worth anything. These are all traits I am strongly against so as you can imagine the whole thing was rather disturbing. I retreated from the world and from people, I was even contemplating anti depressants… something I am dead against using but that is how low I felt.
Depression is a horrible thing to go through and I know many of us have felt like this at some point in our lives. I have had the odd spell now and again but nothing to this extent. It is not something that you can easily snap out of and you just feel like you are wandering about under a permanent dark cloud. I was desperate to get the old me back and was looking into all sorts of ways to try and get rid of all the negativity that seemed to be around me. I started to read blogs about depression and ways to combat it, without resorting to drugs. It was through Dale Preece Kelly, founder of Critterish Allsorts where I was eventually guided towards meditation, specifically energy healing. Well what can I say…my mind has been blown! I literally feel reborn, I only wanted to find my old self again but it has gone beyond this, not only have I found me again, I have found the “true” me. I have learned to change my mindset which has put me at peace with everything and I now have a clear vision of what path I am heading towards. It’s all very exciting and I am embracing this self discovery and spiritual journey with open arms.
What is energy healing?
Well put very simply… we are all made up of energy and when your energy is unbalanced it can have a huge affect on your emotions and mental well being. By changing your mindset you can get rid of all these blocks and shift the energy so that you are more balanced. Energy Healing is a broad term for any therapy that stimulates the energy flow in or around the human body to restore balance on all levels, thereby enabling the physical body to heal itself. Basically clearing blocks and interferences from the biofield. By balancing this energy you will eradicate all negative feelings, you will start to feel good about yourself, people will want to be around you and good things start happening without you even trying.
How can you shift this energy?
The key… meditation. I have been meditating every day now for the past two months using the methods of Jerry Sargeant aka The Facilitator Click here for website His energy healing is quoted as being the most powerful form of energy healing currently out there, even healers using other methods have said that this “star magic” is more powerful than any other form of practice that they have tried. Jerry has kindly agreed to do an interview for me next month so I shall get him to explain in more detail about this form of healing in the next blog post.
So I started by signing up to Jerrys newsletter where I was sent an 11 day audio clip for a half hr meditation that you had to do either standing or sitting for 11 days. I probably didn’t choose the best time to do this as it was literally over the festive period but I didn’t use that as an excuse not to do them. This first step was crucial to do as it teaches you to love yourself. Now I must admit I initially found the concept of loving yourself a tad odd, it sounded so narcissistic, but it really does work! As you can imagine, when you are not feeling very good about yourself to learn to love yourself was a struggle and I found these sessions extremely powerful and very emotional. After a few days I started to notice things really changing, my worries melted away, I became much happier, all negative thoughts disappeared. However I also had a few side effects that are natural with the process of acceptance. Mine were extreme lethargy, loss of appetite, the feeling that I wasn’t in my body, suddenly being very aware of your surroundings and seeing things differently, tingling in my hands and head, feeling very emotional but not in a sad way. If you have just started out with energy healing and experience anything like this, please know that you aren’t going mad, it is completely natural. That phase only lasted a week, I have now fully accepted what has happened / is happening and feel on top of the world. I probably found it more hard going due to the bad place I was in to begin with, you might well not have any of these experiences.
Anyway I did that and then moved to a 21 day transform your life session, we will see how that pans out. There are loads of videos you can choose from on Jerry’s you tube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/JerrySargeantML/videos , not just meditation clips but also videos on how to live the best life you can. They are very motivational and empowering, I just love his approach to life. Thanks to these sessions I now know what I need to do with my life, it is like I have found the missing piece to my puzzle. It will take time to put things in place but a whole new world has opened up for me that I want to explore. I will continue down this “healing” path and I have taken a huge leap out of my comfort zone and will be going to one of Jerry’s worskshops next weekend to understand it all more. I have also had my first reiki session and will be looking into learning this for use on friends and family. Art therapy is another thing I am being guided towards. Art will always be a big part of my life and I have always wanted to do something more with it. I believe this is the way forward for me and am currently putting my plans into action… exciting stuff.
The past month has been such an eye opener and I have been reading non stop about energy healing, mindfulness and spiritual awakenings. It has been a huge moment of self discovery for me and I can’t wait to see how this all evolves. I am hoping by blogging about my experience it might spur others that are going through a bad time to reach out and try this for themselves, just to get them back on a happy plane. I know there is a lot of skepticism out there surrounding this way of life and many people won’t touch this concept with a bargepole but it works! Absolutely anyone can do this, you just need to let go and try it, what harm can it do? Half an hr every day of lying there and listening to someone is a small sacrifice for how you will feel after. I was very skeptical and really wasn’t expecting anything, all I wanted was to be happy again. Well it has gone way beyond that, it’s amazing. I haven’t felt the feelings from last year since I started this and my heart is bursting with love, such a lovely feeling.
The biggest change I have seen apart from the happy business is that people are entering my life and things are happening that all seem to be key to where I am guided to go. It is all so spooky but great things are happening behind the scenes. It is amazing how differently people react to you after you have changed your mind set. By learning to love myself and to let go of absolutely every little worry and negative thought good things are starting to happen. I have had situations at work that should have really ticked me off, the usual monthly hormonal joys, a couple of full moons and I still I haven’t felt low… that really is quite something. Last year I would have a bad spell at least once a week and at one point it seemed to go on forever.
On top of meditation I am also following the reiki principles. I take a moment day and night to say these to myself, thinking about each one and making sure my mind is at peace before I move to the next one. It really does help you start the day on a good footing.
For today I will:
Not be angry
Will not worry
Will be grateful
Will be diligent in my work
Will be kind to others
Off course things still niggle me, I am not a super hero now ha ha, but I can tell when my thoughts are spiraling and I am able to nip them in the bud so that I remain balanced. The other day I could feel old emotions start coming up and I went to have a lie down for 15 minutes and repeated the reiki principles in my mind while focusing on all the energy in my body….it sorted me right out.
I hope these posts will help some people out there. I am throwing caution to the wind with speaking so openly about this. I am aware that some will question all of this but if my writing can help just one person through a bad time then it is worth it.
Have you had a spiritual awakening or had experiences with energy healing? How did it change your life? I would love to hear more. Also have you battled with depression? If so what methods helped you beat the blues?
Much love to you all